She has no time!

I've been blinking blankly at this screen for the hundred and tenth seconds.
I thought...
If the world ain't that full of tragics,would my life be happier?

Duh.
Not that the world affects to me.The macro doesnt have that big impact on my micro.
I'm trying to talk like what I had learnt in Economics previously.
Like shit,though I loved it.

So what about me,what about life,what about what?

I guess I couldnt really figure out why some people always seem happier and some not.
Facade!
I told myself it's all facade!
And I don't care,I really don't give a hoot!
And really it's not that if I give a damn,things will change.
The happy people won't become sadder if I care.
The sad people won't become happier too if I care.
Oh would they?
Maybe for that split second or two, their lives resumed the way it were then.

I badly wish I could detach my soul from this shell for a moment.
Give me some time to see what's happening,what has been happening.
Give me some time to digest and give some time to plan.

What have I lost,what's more that I gain?

Anyway in a sane mind,I don't think my life is that bad.
At least everything ain't that bad.
Although I wish it could get better but what is better to you?
Is that a limit set on ther term 'better'.
If it gets better,sure you wish it would get even better and better and best.

I heard Hender saying something like from a psychologist's view, the best is not to put emotions to a problem.
(Hender's my boss, too Clara's hubby.)

Erm..nice preach advice!
But ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.ha~huh?


For two days in a row,I have been:

1)Dreaming of someone else who..well isnt here anymore and shouldnt be.
2)Goes to work with bad hair day.
3)Indigestion.
4)Feeling fat which I hereby announced it's a long term problem for me!
5) Etc...


In a nutshell,this is again a fuck off entry.

*Shrugs*

Oh blah...

A gnawing indescrible unknown anger?